"I want to kill myself!" "Mom, I hate you!" "I am a failure" I turned the door handle and slowly opened the door. I walked into the room with my head down, I could hardly feel anything. I slowly sat down on the dark brown wooden chest next to the foot of the bed and looked up. I still had my scrubs on, and my stethoscope around my neck. I was shaky and a little sweaty, then I opened my mouth and the words simply came out before I could even stop them..."I want to kill myself, I can't do this anymore, I am a failure and a disappointment" November 2015 heralded the period in my life when I hit rock bottom. It lasted about 7 months, and I seriously considered killing myself on a daily basis following life's trauma: divorce, financial crises, single-motherhood, and a strong conviction that I was simply not good enough. I felt I had failed everyone, my children, my family, my spouse, and myself. I went from a confident doctor to a shattered soul crying every day and overwhelmed with worthlessness, hopelessness, self-doubt, and anguish. I would drive up and down HI-410 here in San Antonio with no seat belt on, and my rooftop down looking for a space to drive off the highway. I was in daily pain and emotional exhaustion. That was 5 years ago. Today, I am a freelance writer, a blogger, a You Tuber, a Podcaster, a bestselling author, and soon-to-be TEDx Speaker. I have turned my pain into my passion, and now help and empower parents, and teens with suicidal thoughts find a path to thriving. I have developed a system and framework that I have used to come back from those days of mental anguish, overwhelm and despair, and I have helped hundreds of teens and their parents go from challenge to change, and from waning to winning in their relationships with each other. Are you a parent whose teen struggles with self-doubt, self-harm, or self-hate. Or do you find yourself struggling to understand your teen's attitude, the changes in their mood, what they are saying or even what they are doing? Send me an email, or fill out the form below and let's talk. Let's get to work. We shall blaze a path together that will help you and your struggling teen find freedom from their fears... Remember, we are in this together. I'll see you on the inside. PS: I love you. Dr. L Do you or your establishment need a down to earth speaker with a heart? Fill Out the form below and book Dr. Lulu Today!